Self-Journey

By Sumaira Berry

2021: This year I did not live 365 days, this year I fought 365 battles and perhaps the hardest I've gone through are the ones I lack words to talk about. Some days I lost, some days I won. I met the most broken version of myself, but also if I may call it- the strongest.

This year taught me heartbreak, it taught me strength and everything in between.

Learnt that in order to rise, I had to fall and that to grow, I had to heal . One of the hardest pills that I had to swallow was to realize that no matter how hard I tried to save people, I was the one who drowned.

This year taught me to never go too hard for anyone, especially those who won't even go half a mile for you. You gotta understand that people will leave you in different phases of your life , you can't always blame yourself and be harsh yourself. People pleasing, I understand, I really do, but the most important lesson I learnt after falling to rock bottom so many times because of it is that you can't always abandon yourself and lose yourself in it, and even if you did, this is your reminder for that great re-finding of yourself which will be life changing.

Trust me, the regret of not telling enough people to just get out of my life is one of the biggest regrets I have and something because of which I have suffered, my mental health has suffered real bad in countless ways.



Learnt it the hard way but sometimes life can seem lonely a bit, but the peace it comes with is the best thing ever, absolutely unmatched and worth it.

It's always better to be alone and believing in having a few people who you know loves you for you and nothing else, rather than being surrounded by halfass people. Don't be scared to rock alone buddy, the sun is alone everyday and still shines.

And for all the times your eyes and heart saw the good in even devils and still you got walked upon along with having the holes they burnt in your heart, don't you worry, Karma got your back stronger than anyone and anything! All the good that you put out will find it's way back to you, maybe not today, but certainly when you need it the most!

This was an eye-opening year, a year of spiritual awakening. I learnt that not all things matter in life, but the ones that do, I must hold on. In the heart wrenching process of letting go, I learnt to hold on who and what mattered, added value to my life and happiness, and helped me grow.

This year I warned with myself.

But above all, this year I survived.