There is danger lurking behind that smile
By Smriti Goyal
Are you also among the ones who pretend to look happy but struggle with depressive thoughts on a daily basis? Are you the one who wears a commercial face mask to make everything look great, and at times perfect? Are you the one who offers no hint about any of your problems to the outside world? Well, you have a condition which psychologists call ‘smiling
Most people haven’t even heard of the term. The definition of smiling depression is appearing happy to others, literally smiling, while internally suffering with depressive symptoms. Smiling depression often goes undetected because people don’t even realize that they are depressed. It doesn’t seem possible that someone can be smiling, chipper, functioning, and at the same time depressed.
Pranay adds that each person’s experience is different with smiling depression. It’s possible to feel just one or many of these symptoms. People often discount their own feelings and brush them aside. At times, they just don’t want to acknowledge the symptoms due to the fear of being considered ‘weak’. “So these are depressed people who look happy from the outside,” says Pranay.
Adarsh Tripathi (name changed), 17, says that he was always taught that boys are strong and are not allowed to express their feelings to the world. “I felt restless for a lot of things, but didn’t want my friends to see that and hence I always smiled,” he says.
Why is it important to understand and treat ‘smiling depression’? Dr RN Chatturvedi, a senior psychologist, says, “Smiling depression can be more dangerous than any other form of depression as individuals suffering from this condition are more likely to commit suicide.”
According to a certain study by the WHO in 2015, 36% of Indians suffer from major depression. Others are likely to suffer at some point or the other in their lives. It is a mental health disorder characterised by persistently depressed mood or loss of interest in activities, causing significant impairment in daily life. Smiling depression occurs when individuals mask their symptoms of depression.
Now, a question arises as to why people hide their depression? It starts with a person’s denial that they are depressed. They may think that as long as they are smiling, they won’t have depression. Most patients can’t admit that there might be something wrong with them. Another big reason to do so is to maintain ‘perfectionism’ amid the unrealistic norms of society.Admitting to depression would mean that their lives are less than perfect and they just cannot bring themselves to do that.
Sometimes they are fearful of burdening their loved ones with their problems and choose not to speak anything about them. At other times they are just embarrassed to talk about it as many of us still believe that depression is a character defect or a sign of weakness. Sometimes a person’s professionalism comes in the way of admitting about what they are going through while at other times, a person’s own guilt keeps him in denial. They might blame themselves for things going wrong and think they cannot be depressed and that it’s all their fault. So they keep it hidden behind a smile.
Geetanjali (name changed), a 21-year-old engineering student, shares her experience of being in a depressive phase. She says that she was always a bright student, which led her family to expect a lot from her. Though they never forced her to pursue engineering, she knew their expectations. “I started fearing failure. I always had this question in my mind as to what would happen if I failed,” says Geetanjali. She adds that she was scared of disappointing her parents. But she was happy around her friends, whom she calls her ‘real gems’.
Geetanjali says that her family is very supportive. Everyone loved her and she too loved everyone. But still there was something wrong inside her. “There was nothing to feel unhappy about but I still wasn’t happy,” she says. She never shared this feeling with anyone because she always felt there’s nothing to be shared in it and it was all her mind not wanting to work hard.
“I smiled but I wanted to cry for reasons I wasn’t able to figure out,” says Geetanjali. She recalls that one day her mother found her crying in the washroom, which she often used to do. Her mother asked her with utmost love and care and she just broke down in front of her. She says that she doesn’t know what all she spoke but she felt immense relief after that.
After that day, her mother always used to come to her and talk about her life and reassure her that she was doing her best and her mother would be equally happy even if she fails. Geetanjali adds that this simple talk therapy by her mother saved her from ruining her life and now she’s almost done with her engineering course and she’s not afraid of failure anymore. “I smile for real now and not just to show people that yes, I’m happy,” says Geetanjali.
There are several others like Geetanjali we might know but don’t recognise them for what they are. Whether it’s our favourite movie stars or our colleagues, the desire to fit into society can force everyone to put on that plastic smile throughout their lives. So how is one to know who the ones are who need our help?
It’s very common for people with smiling depression to work really hard to disguise their symptoms. So it’s important for us to know some obvious signs that we can look for in a person to know if he/she is suffering from any such kind of depression.
The loss of interest in things once they enjoyed is one of the most apparent signs one could see. Like in Adarsh’s case, he says that not being able to express created anxiety for him and he started losing interest in the things he liked the most. “My hands shivered whenever I played guitar and I felt like crying whenever I wanted to sing,” Adarsh says.
Sometimes there’s a change in the appetite too. Some may start overeating and some may completely lose their appetite. Changes in sleep is another apparent sign. Some people struggle to get out of bed while others may report insomnia. Some may just have a changed sleep cycle like staying awake at night and sleeping during the day. Guilt, worthlessness and feeling of hopelessness are other common problems these people go through.
At times, these people may even appear cheerful and optimistic. That is the reason it’s important to talk about mental health issues openly so that people don’t need to pretend.
Chatturvedi, who has 39 years’ experience as a psychologist, says, “People are leading a very stressful life nowadays and are becoming more vulnerable to developing depression. It is a major public health problem worldwide and ‘smiling depression’ is on the rise.”
He adds that smiling depression can be more dangerous than any other form of depression as it has the potential to force patients to commit suicide. Clinical depression patients sometimes lack the energy to create a plan and follow through on committing suicide. However, the ones suffering from smiling depression are highly functional and have the energy to take suicidal steps.
Chatturvedi further mentions that there are several people, especially adults, going through this pain of smiling but hardly any of them admits it. As long as they continue to deny or avoid what makes them feel empty, it will be impossible to fix the problem. When depressive thoughts and feelings aren’t addressed, they typically snowball and become worse. What matters most is to reach out to the ones who care. “Apart from counselling, meditation, talk therapy and a little change in lifestyle also helps a lot,” says Chatturvedi.
The good news is with the right treatment and support, the beautiful smile that hides depression can actually reflect the joy within.