An Epiphany
Times of Bennett | Updated: Mar 27, 2023 20:35
NANDIKA MISHRA
It’s past midnight and you find yourself reflecting on life. Sometimes I find it so strange that I have never been able to look beyond the life l am already living. And I sometimes don't understand how others do that. how do you imagine something you haven't experienced already? I was incapable of thinking aboutcollege when in school and of adult life when in college-everything I experience , I experience was new even though there is hardly any newness since our perception of things was already defined well within our childhood-hence the lack of daily wonder. it's odd that I can enter a city I've never lived in, go to neighborhoods l have only heard of, and feel completely at peace in a moment where I am soaking so much new information. sensations? And this lack of vision I speak is only for how I view life internally, because while I know so much about myself, how do I know how much of it is real and there's so much I can possibly never make sense of? while it's so easy to think of external futures because of how much information I guzzle down, how do I figure out my place internally in those external situations? anyway, this doesn't make me sad-it perplexes me constantly! and l am trying now to define at least the near future of my life, fully well knowing things hardly go according to plan! that's what audacity is, probably.
It’s past midnight and you find yourself reflecting on life. Sometimes I find it so strange that I have never been able to look beyond the life l am already living. And I sometimes don't understand how others do that. how do you imagine something you haven't experienced already? I was incapable of thinking about
