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Finding a New Self

Times of Bennett | Updated: May 16, 2023 11:04
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By: Vaidehi Shah

Hello people you don’t know me, and I don’t know you but here I am to tell you BT (Bad Trip) of my life….

4th semester of my collage to describe in a simple sentence is gol-gol Jalebi and I hate sweets!

One problem is not solved yet and another is already knocking on the door asking, “May I come in!” Lot of time felt alone, betrayed, hurt, lost, exhausted could not trust people anymore and dear ones became no one.

Lot of time thought of giving up and run away but problems wasn’t only outside the fight was going on internally as well. Things which I created from all my hard work were crumbling from my position to my identity everything was under question and time wanted me to let go of things.

Stubborn I am I was not letting go of old me I forgot how she was, who she was, how she made it all. I just felt someone else who was trying to copy old me, but I miserably failed. She is no more, and I cannot become her.

Old me didn’t had emotions and new me has them. Old me wanted to be different, unique, eccentric and someone who didn’t care about anyone but her, ya! Sounds like cool Baddie but new me just wants to be normal, enjoy what everyone likes and care about people and take rest.

Old me wanted to be all in one want to do everything before her time ends but New me don’t know what she wants, is confused to what to do in future, is lost copying and keeping up with the dreams of old me.

Time had come to start new phase of myself, but I was not ready to lose my old identity but time does not stop for anyone even if I don’t want to I have to let go and now it’s my turn to accept New me, and understand what she is like and what she wants and what are her dreams, and strengthen her and create a new identity.